God made it very clear to my husband and I that we would have a son. He confirmed it over and over again. My husband and I had no personal desire to have any more children as we already had three daughters, one of which was an adult in college. Our second oldest daughter was nearing the end of high school, and our youngest daughter could finally bathe and dress herself. Freedom was on the horizon.
After much toiling and whining, we eventually surrendered to what we believed was God's will. It took about seven months for us to get pregnant. When month five arrived, and it was time for us to find out the gender of the baby, we were excited for the doctor to confirm what we already knew. That God had blessed us with a son.
The ultrasound revealed that we were pregnant with another girl. We were dumbfounded and bewildered. How could this be? God had clearly spoken that we would have a son. We spent the following three months wondering how this would turn out. Had we missed God, or was the ultrasound wrong?
On August 6, 2012 our daughter Riley Elizabeth was stillborn just 22 days before she was scheduled to be delivered. This was an earth-shattering blow to our faith. Was this some type of cruel trick God was playing? Not only did we wonder if we heard God wrong about the gender of our child, but now we wondered if we heard him speak at all?
Have you ever had a time in your life when you knew with everything in you that God had instructed you to do something and the end result did not turn out as you thought it would? God's only requirement is for us to be obedient and the end result is up to Him. Isaiah 55:8-9 says: "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts."
My husband and I may never know why things happened as they did. But we do know that God has brought beauty out of the ashes of Riley's life. And since God is no respector of persons, He will do the same for you.